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This is God
my God
The powerful force that created this world and all that is in it
This is who God is to me
This is how God exists around me:
as my strength – my strength is God
this rock underneath my feet, this fortress that surrounds me and protects me – that too is God
the act of deliverance is the very presence of God
all that provides respite and refuge is God
this shield that I carry into battle, my defensive protection, this is God
this weapon that I wield, my offensive tool, this is God

I call upon the Lord
I see all the ways that he shows up in my distress
He has provided me with all that I have by his very presence
I am filled with praise
I can trust in his salvation.

Staring into the face of death… It surrounds me completely. I am all tangled up in it. I can see how real it is and how strongly I wish not to die… so I cry out to God, I tell him where I am and I confess the nature of my predicament. I meditate on all that he is to me and just how entirely the enemy is trying to pull me down into his clutch; the very cords of death are growing up around my feet and even as I try to take a step out of this mess it is a step into a snare planted to confront me and then on top of all that treachery, I can hear the sound of the flood waters threatening to drown me in this place.

The Lord hears my detailed cry. He listens to all that I have to say and his response… his response is the most fierce rescue attempt ever assembled… a glorious display of his power, his heart, his being. He calls together all of the forces at his disposal; all his instruments of earth orchestrate this rescue.

The land beneath my feet and the mountains above me began to tremble and quake at the force of God’s anger against the work of the enemy.
All forms of fire appear; hot coals breathing fire which breath smoke.
A very thick and great darkness moves through space like a flying creature. The darkness grows heavy with water and begins to shoot forth hailstones and coals of fire; a thundering voice; lightening like an arrow
The earth is laid bare, broken to the core… and he reaches in and draws me out, up to a broad place, rescuing me from those things too mighty for me to confront.

The righteousness of Jesus that God seeks to reward and rescue. His ways. His path.
Nearness. Blameless. Guiltless. Washed clean. Righteous.
In his embrace, surrounded by his presence, this relationship, reflecting you, acting how we see you act.
Merciful
Anything other than this is torture.
When we are not paying attention we will trip and fall.
You light our way. You are the light in the dark. By your strength we run and leap.
This God is perfect. His word proves true. We take refuge in this. He is our shield.

With the Lord I become Strong. Secure. He trains. He supports. He is Great. Sure-footed. Persistent.
With the Lord I become like a Warrior. Equipped. Elevated.
With the Lord I can Destroy. I can Fight. I become Clean.
From head to toe – feet, hands, body – we become these things with the Lord.

Preservation – requested of you
Refuge – in you
Goodness – only near you
Delightful and excellent – with your people

Sorrow upon sorrow – running away from you

Life is in your hand, it is your hand
You draw these lines and I will not complain
You drop down these lines of inheritance around me and I am filled with the pleasure of what you have determined.

The Lord speaks through the heart to give counsel and instruction
He is before me and beside me
Gladness – in my heart
Rejoicing – in my whole being
Security – in this flesh
Joy – in your presence
Pleasure – by your side

Psalm 15, two ways.

Sojourn – dwell – walk – speak
Not slander
Not evil
Not reproach
Despising the vile
Honoring the righteous
Does not change
Does not exploit
Does not take a bribe
Shall never BE moved
Moves himself (not by others)
Swears on his own pain

Unmovable
A person that shall never be moved
(((Those on your side)))
Spend time in your presence
Near you, next to you
Over time, traveling with you
To the places where you go!

Standing out – like a hill – to be seen – from a distance – up high – noticeable – something to move towards – a landmark

Blameless
Doing right, speaking truth (even and especially) in the heart
(((Those on your side)))
Despise the vile
Honor the fellows
Allows his own hurt over another’s
Does not change
Gives without expecting anything
Loaning without requiring

Psalm 14

Psalm 14 has been hard to edit.

A few reasons. I wrote the meditation prior to the decision to share them in this way… and that matters because as I look over what I wrote I think about how it will be received, how it sounds, what it conveys. The message that I would want to deliver [or not deliver]. I think about people who are agnostic or atheist or who just don’t believe in the God of the Bible – the ones who credit the unseen world to the power of the universe – the divine. I wonder if they can even hear reflections on these scriptures.

I think about how there are folks out there who use words from the Bible to justify atrocious things. I don’t want to be lumped into the same space as those people who justify their ugliness with the same words that I would use to share beauty and goodness.

But I am not God’s defender… I am his creation. He can defend Himself. I am just trying to listen and hear so that I might be able to follow and do.

Psalm 14 has been hard because I have seen for the first time this very strong bent towards drawing this line between us and them. There is a lot of line-drawing that takes place in our world. And in our personal lives. We all do it. I do it. I was just thinking about this couple that I know of who has a hobby that makes absolutely no sense to me. I consider it ‘weird’. And on the flip side, I personally feel ostracized when I talk about my own hobbies and I am met with a blank stare or an empty response; and all I can see on their faces is ‘she is wierd’. But we can’t stop at this. We are different. We disagree. We don’t have to be friends… but I do think it is good to be friendly; that it is good to listen, to be able to hear the stories of others and to make the effort to offer empathy or at least kindness.

So in this Psalm, David, talks and refers often in his imagery to this line that separates God’s side and the Enemy’s side. I am far from an historical expert, but I think that the Jewish worldview (was) is rooted in whether you were in or out. Either you are or you aren’t. There is no process to becoming, no journey towards belief. And when the story of God gets to the point where the work of Jesus enters into the narrative, it is clear that all of these dividing walls come down, there is no longer any need for these distinctions between Jew or non-Jew, slave or free-person, male or female…

And I do believe very much that there is good and evil, right and wrong… but I also believe that God is the only righteous judge. Even when a person does a detestable thing, that is not the end of their story. As long as they breathe, there is hope. And I can disagree with how a person eats and be repulsed by their bad breath… I might kindly hint that their breath is a little off-putting, but I cannot make them brush their teeth, they don’t answer to me.

So what does this Psalm and its hard line have to offer? It’s made me think, that is for sure.

Stupid people deny God

Stupid people are corrupt

Stupid people do abdominal things

Everyone is stupid

There is not one good person to be found in all the world

God is way up high in his high high place

And when he looks down on all the children of man

He sees that they are all stupid

They refuse to understand

They refuse to seek him

And in their corruption, they continue

They turn away from good

They turn away from knowledge

They turn toward evil

They devour each other

They are filled with terror

They invoke terror

They spread terror

They ignore the great secret…

The great light that illuminates

God is with the righteous

God is the refuge for the poor

God strengthens these plans

God prospers these ways

These find salvation in Him

These find restoration in him

These find fortunes in Him

These are his people

These rejoice

These are glad

They see. These have.

He looks down on them and walks with these.

Psalm 13

How long how long how long how long
Treacherous impatience
My heart is stuck
This question
Like claws deeply sunk into tender flesh
You have forgotten
You are hiding
All day long
I am talking to myself
Mine the only voice I hear
My words are sorrow
My heart heavy
I look out
Around me
All I see are enemies
Ignorance, hatred, racism, injustice
Ruling the world
Demons that possess
And then silence
Do I hear you?

Look away from this examination
Of all that surrounds you
Stop suffocating your heart
I have rescued the world

Grant the jewel of your precious light
Your energy to our bodies
Your spirit to our work
Live and dwell in us
All of it we offer up
These enemies will fade as you prevail
You allow us to remain
Steadfast, unshaken
Steadfast, unshaken
Our heart filled with song
Of salvation
Your love